Unbearable Agony: A Personal Fight Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by quick jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment only. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Sharon May
Sharon May

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